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Hello. ♥ Today I have one straight forward purpose. --> People. They can be so very confusing. =| Hopefully you will be back next year. First, a goodbye to everyone switching schools to prep school! It seems ridiculous so many of my friends are being switched at once. So goodbye: Andrew, Tanner, Ben, and all the rest of you.♥
But now for the confusing part.. Why can't some people just say what is on their mind? Why do they want you to wait or keep it a 'secret'? I am waiting for "Fred" to tell me how if he feels the same and it feels like it might never happen. He is just about the most confusing person I have ever met. He seems so simple, but he doesn't want to let people what is on his mind so it makes him somewhat confusing. In my ideal world, this would work as I say I like him, and he just says if he does or not too. But of course, this isn't my ideal world. That's what makes life fun and interesting. We are the exact opposite in the sense that I share exactly whats on my mind and he rarely does, but we have never had a serious argument before. Could it prove opposites attract? ♥
I get the feeling on the inside he probably doesn't like me back. I get this because for me, if you like someone you say so. I need to keep remembering that to him, as well as most guys, they don't and like to make girls wait. I need to think about that to say positive. :)
I only told one person my true feelings. That person would be Sahra, she's my cousin and I love her to death. I would tell anyone of the Idinerds (Elphie, Sarah, Kaia, Kelly, Alex, ect.), but they wouldn't understand well enough. Most of them because they live a few states away, or even a continent away. Elphie wouldn't because although she lives here, she doesn't go to my school this year, now did she last year. (She will next year though!) I feel like Sahra is the only one I can tell right now. I would tell my best friends and neighbors (Amanda and Natalia), but they are best off being kept off in the dark until if they judge it wont matter. I don't think they like him very much and I don't want them to make up my mind for me. It's my choice, no outside influence! I can predict their reactions anyhow. Natalia would just most likely go ew why him? or something similar to that. Amanda on the other hand, would probably be thinking the same, but then would be concerned I'm going to get hurt. I know Sahra wouldnt judge. She doesn't mind him, and even if I ask for outside influence she always says 'It's your choice.' From her point of view, she thinks he does. At least, that's what she told me when I told her. She said that she's almost sure of it cuz it's "always been you and him and he gets sparkles in his eyes and you smile a lot" . All i said was Wtf. And I was thinking Wtf what twisted world are you in.? I don't neccessarily think it's true, but some times people who aren't involved see things best, ya know? Well I hope Sahra is right. He said "maybe tomorrow", since tomorrow is now today, I hope I find out today.
Sigh, I'll post tomorrow morning because I'm spending the night at Amanda's. Since her uncle is gone, it's going to be me, her, Natalia, her aunt she lives with, her other aunt, and Colby and Charlie her adorable little cousins/sisters. (Even if she does claim Charlie is evil.) But scary movies all night? Its going to be super funn!! Actually, instead of tomorrow morning, most likely tomorrow afternoon. :)
But now for the confusing part.. Why can't some people just say what is on their mind? Why do they want you to wait or keep it a 'secret'? I am waiting for "Fred" to tell me how if he feels the same and it feels like it might never happen. He is just about the most confusing person I have ever met. He seems so simple, but he doesn't want to let people what is on his mind so it makes him somewhat confusing. In my ideal world, this would work as I say I like him, and he just says if he does or not too. But of course, this isn't my ideal world. That's what makes life fun and interesting. We are the exact opposite in the sense that I share exactly whats on my mind and he rarely does, but we have never had a serious argument before. Could it prove opposites attract? ♥
I get the feeling on the inside he probably doesn't like me back. I get this because for me, if you like someone you say so. I need to keep remembering that to him, as well as most guys, they don't and like to make girls wait. I need to think about that to say positive. :)
I only told one person my true feelings. That person would be Sahra, she's my cousin and I love her to death. I would tell anyone of the Idinerds (Elphie, Sarah, Kaia, Kelly, Alex, ect.), but they wouldn't understand well enough. Most of them because they live a few states away, or even a continent away. Elphie wouldn't because although she lives here, she doesn't go to my school this year, now did she last year. (She will next year though!) I feel like Sahra is the only one I can tell right now. I would tell my best friends and neighbors (Amanda and Natalia), but they are best off being kept off in the dark until if they judge it wont matter. I don't think they like him very much and I don't want them to make up my mind for me. It's my choice, no outside influence! I can predict their reactions anyhow. Natalia would just most likely go ew why him? or something similar to that. Amanda on the other hand, would probably be thinking the same, but then would be concerned I'm going to get hurt. I know Sahra wouldnt judge. She doesn't mind him, and even if I ask for outside influence she always says 'It's your choice.' From her point of view, she thinks he does. At least, that's what she told me when I told her. She said that she's almost sure of it cuz it's "always been you and him and he gets sparkles in his eyes and you smile a lot" . All i said was Wtf. And I was thinking Wtf what twisted world are you in.? I don't neccessarily think it's true, but some times people who aren't involved see things best, ya know? Well I hope Sahra is right. He said "maybe tomorrow", since tomorrow is now today, I hope I find out today.
Sigh, I'll post tomorrow morning because I'm spending the night at Amanda's. Since her uncle is gone, it's going to be me, her, Natalia, her aunt she lives with, her other aunt, and Colby and Charlie her adorable little cousins/sisters. (Even if she does claim Charlie is evil.) But scary movies all night? Its going to be super funn!! Actually, instead of tomorrow morning, most likely tomorrow afternoon. :)
Love and Rockets,
Julia
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Julia
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